Buying More colours to Wear
I started writing this whole long-ass post about why (because why buy things we don't want to?) but it was too long so that's gone and this is what we've got. The gist is simply that I must willingly dress in theme now if I want to have fun when theme things come up. I found it as challenging as I thought it would be. I guess it's because we just get used to seeing ourselves a certain way and then when we try to look at something about ourselves a different way it's just so foreign to us that we have to overthink it like overthinking is a necessary step or something.
So yeh that's what I'm on about today. If you were hoping for something more incredible then you can pretend it's full of metaphors and analogies. I really do have to dress in changing themes (voluntarily) if I want to enjoy a few things but imagining metaphors or hidden analogies will probably be way more profound. You'll never get these minutes back after I have taken them from you. Make the most of it.
Once upon a time... or something like that.... there was specifically a very bright coloured theme night rising in the distance, 4-5 weeks into my future. It looked really pink to me but bright pastels was the back up plan. Yeh, if I could find 'ok sort-of pink' I would do that but I could tell early on that it might not happen that way so the back up plan was immediately some kind of bright blue, if only I could find something like that. It took me the whole 4-5 weeks to prepare because all the bright coloured stuff fits smaller people or current fashion suggests that the bright item cease its existence in fabric somewhere higher up on each part of the body... if you want to wear those colours. As for the things that are not like that they are either stitched in really weird places so they sit odd or the whole doing 2023 in colours thing is so different that some weird illusion was going on and it just looked that way. I spent every week bringing home everything else that did not fit into those examples.
That theme night has now come and gone. I passed and failed at my goal. "Barbie" Theme. I passed at buying more clothes. Failed because ugh I think you just had to be there and see for yourself the way things turned out.
Purchases went something like this:
giant bright coloured unicorn onesie- does not fit theme but it was a flex (item claimed by family)
cool bright red skirt - not worn because I don't understand what colours go together (?)
really bright blue dress - I don't have a reason I didn't wear it other than panic (?)
bright green-y white T-shirt- not worn as I don't know what colours go together (claimed by family)
bright-ish Blue Jumper - yeh, wore that because of its amazing ability to exist either on or off
pretty nice bright flower dress thing with orange red pink and white bits- just sooked, didn't wear it
3 or so other blueish shirts of different types- probably will wear them one day...
Purple-y Tshirt thing- Liked this one too. Ended up wearing this when I was done changing 5 times.
Found an awesome pair of jeans I liked. I really liked them and they fit perfectly if I never sit down. Not in theme. Bought it anyway. Will wear everywhere else (and never sit down).
Who doesn't die a little inside when they dress in Barbie theme? Maybe you would be surprised how many people were happy for you all but did not know how to manage 'colours'.
So yeh...I'm actually sure I died a little inside every time I went to try things on and I'm convinced my soul left my body many times every week but I got better at putting myself through the process and because I did, I can try again. I hated trying, I really struggled with something different but I put time and money on it because trying was a good thing. I want to look forward to things and I don't want everything I hate to be all that I am.
So here's to the next themed misadventure! It already looks like I have ordered poorly from the internet (to avoid going to the shops). I am going to spend 2 weeks pondering if the purchase from a previously undisclosed country will arrive, while I have no back up plan. I know I have just told you how wonderful it is to have a go but everything has some ridiculously stupid pitfall that you are gonna Disney Pocahontas-dive right into when you try to take a shortcut. I never want to use a shopping centre change room ever again. Something about learning and doing things better next time (oops and blah blah blah...)
Anyway.. worst case scenario, I really did die from not knowing how to match coloured clothing together in a change room somewhere in one of these towns. Perhaps my carcass is still there but if that's the truth then I didn't just spend all that money on something that is going to make cry. Forget it. If you are reading this then I somehow survived and that means we are still stuck here together and I am not getting out of the surprise that I have ordered myself in the mail so easily...
So that's what happens when we just do the same thing all the time and don't try new things, I guess. There's no hidden message except maybe if you want to live a little you might have to do something everyone else can already do. You will want to carry on a bit as you might be really bad at it. Good luck and all that.
That's all for now, until your next spam.
-Mz
*PS. type "barbie movie" into your Google engine and it will respond with a distraction
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